Monday, March 2, 2009

not fair.

I was at a friend's house this weekend and I was talking to her about the last few months. We were in the kitchen and her kids were sitting on the couch watching a movie...we didn't think they were paying any attention to us. I was getting a bit emotional (seems to happen a lot lately) and all the sudden one of her kids was sitting right next to me and said, "It's not fair." My friend smiled a little and then she said...ever so softly, "sometimes, life's not fair." I could elaborate on the rest of our conversation with her sweet little girl but I'll leave that one just between us. The point really is...life's not fair. We don't always get what we want and things don't always turn out the way we think they should. There's lots of pain. And lots of hurt. And many hardships. BUT...thankfully...we still serve a loving God who promises to walk beside us, comfort us, and give us HOPE.

Ryan's heart procedure didn't go as expected. In fact, it went quite the opposite. As mentioned before, the doctors were hoping to go in and balloon his heart valve delaying surgery for another year or two and possibly qualifying him for an experimental surgery that would allow the doctors to replace his valve without having to do open heart surgery. Unfortunately, they found that the right coronary artery in his heart is 99.9% blocked and they will have to do open heart surgery to replace his valve and perform a bypass. Not the news we were hoping for. This will be Ryan's 4th open heart surgery. It will be in April or May. Not fair.

A lot hasn't seemed fair lately.

And with that, I guess you better get to know Ryan and Kendra so that you can be praying for them in the months ahead. You'll certainly be hearing about them from me :)

I'm pretty sure this is how Ryan felt after hearing the news...


Here is Ryan, my sister, Kendra, and their little boy, Sawyer. Picture Perfect.


While you are praying for Ryan & Kendra...don't forget to keep praying for Jess & Joel and their families.


And now...something that makes me smile. Because sometimes...we just need to smile.




5 comments:

41wray said...

Laura you are so right!! It's not FAIR! I've been feeling that way since we first learned about Cora. (I'm Jessica's cousin, Sharley from California).
We will add Ryan to our prayer list here at our house and at church.
God Bless, your baby is very cute and obviously enjoying his lunch!! Clever mom to remove clothes!!

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry to hear that Laura. My goodness so much has been happening in the last few months. I will definitely be praying for you and your family. Love you!

jackson3 said...

I think it is good to be honest sometimes, even if it means not being positive. I got so sick of people telling me everything would get better when I had my misscarraige, all I wanted was for someone to say out loud what I was feeling...... it's not fair and it won't get better or eaiser. I needed to voice that before I could start healing.

Zingo Tots said...

Your reason for smiling has me smiling! What a cute little guy! Fabulous photos! Enjoy every minute of it!
Your family remains in my prayers.
Jill

hisartistaj said...

I am so sorry. I am praying for you. I understand. I've had so many difficulties right now. its no fair at all, specially when its suppose to b the happiest time of life, getting married, which is, but there's alot more going on too. I will be praying for you too. Hugs friend.